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The Faces of AbAnon

As AbAnon continues to grow, our Board of Directors began a search to find someone to work in the Spokane area. This would enable me to focus on introducing AbAnon into other areas of the USA and abroad. Eventually, we hired two women to serve as part-time Co-Directors for the Spokane area. I am delighted to introduce them to you in our next two newsletters. -Perry Underwood, Executive Director


JulieSSince my earliest of memories I wanted to be a mom.  Holding babies has always brought me so much joy and put me at peace.  It just feels right.  So when I found myself pregnant at 17, my emotions were mixed.  People will tell you that it’s just cells, that it’s not really a life.  In my selfish world, I didn’t know the difference.  Ultimately I made the decision to have an abortion, a decision that would affect the rest of my life.

Two years later, I got pregnant with my son Dylan.  This time I wasn’t making the same decision no matter what happened.  I loved him with my entire being.  Thus began my life as a single mom.

I then again found myself pregnant.  The father convinced me that I couldn’t handle being the parent of two kids.  He was probably right, but there were definitely other options.  He drove me to Denver to have the procedure done.  I was completely numb and shut off at this point.

I’d met Josh during that previous relationship and we started dating. We married about a year later. I became a Christian and knew that God had forgiven me of all my sins, but for my abortions I couldn’t forgive myself.  Josh and I were blessed with two beautiful daughters, but I just couldn’t forget about my babies in Heaven.  I’d lived with this pain and trauma for so many years.  I kept it buried deep and didn’t tell even my closest friends.

About two years ago, I was introduced to Abortions Anonymous, or AbAnon.  I went through an eight week class in the fall of 2016 and finally was able to start processing and healing all of my grief.  I was able to write letters to my precious babies asking for their forgiveness and telling them how much I love them.  I even got a tattoo to symbolize that they were a part of me just as much as my three precious babies here on earth.

I’m now serving on the Board of Directors for AbAnon, have been trained as one of their many Group Facilitators and have recently accepted the position of the Co-Director for the Spokane area.

I will live in shame no longer and try to help as many people as I possibly can.  Becoming a director for AbAnon helps me to be more involved in something I’m passionate about. There are so many women and men who have been involved in abortions and are hurting in silence.  My hope is that one day there won’t be a need for AbAnon, but in the meantime, we need to help and support as many as we can.